Erica & Brother - Dancing mat, dancing software, cup, bear soft-toy, me-to-you balloon, a full series of Sophie Kinsella books, chocolate rolls, "H" keychain...(Hooray!!! Cannot stop jumping up and down when I saw the dancing mat~~~>_<) They really try hard for making my 18th birthday a great one..with sacaristic remarks written in the letter..hahax..jk jk

Andrea - Keychain with my name on it, two photos with me and her inside. Thank her so much for sending the letter all the way from Malaysia..v touched worx..muackx!

Thx Wynne and Victor and Samantha for the email..Wynne!! Must do it when you promise me hor!!! hehex..=)

Thx Kc and Shie and Andrea and Wing for the sms...^__^

Thx Jasmine and WinYin for leaving me testimonials..miss u two loads too! hahax..suprise horx..winyin nv forget my birthday leh~~

Thx Leeping, Esther and Weirong for wishing at my tagboard too. Er..Esther you are not late arh..

Thx Weirong and kok chuang for wishing me again in msn too..kekex..

At last, thx Anh who wishes me happy birthday in her msn nickname. =D I saw it..hehe..and no worriess~~ I will wait for you for 4 months..Wif love! muackzzzz!!

Uh huh..hmm..nothing..juz wanna thx u all for remembering my birthday even though you guys n gals are busy..谢谢！爱死你们了~~

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Finally, I have turned 18, a legal age when I can drink alcohol and go to pubs. Now I carry more responsibilities for my own behaviour and once I committed any crime, I gotta go to jail, juz like any other adults would. Should I be delighted or disappointed that I have reached this age..? I dont know the answer and I am waiting to find out more...

What have I been busy with for the last whole week? Well..I kinda attended a stagecoach course. I gotta wake up at 8.30 every morning to get ready and can only go home at 5 or 6pm. The teachers taught us how to act, dance and sing. Its supposed to be a childrens' event but somehow we are engaged in it.

Yes..I am the eldest person in the whole group, but who knows? The other two girls, Jenny and Lechesha, who are 16 and 14 respectively, looks much older than me. =) Kinda delighted when the small kids told me that I looked like 14 years old lehH~~~ hahahhax. Well...

We gotta go for the audition for big roles like Nurse Nelie and BloodyMary. Initially I wanted to try it out too but once I saw the script, I changed my mind completely. Thats...too much to remember. hahahax..(I dont think I will succeed in getting the roles anyway..=P)

The performance on Friday turned out to be a big success and the audience continued clapping even we left the stage. WoohoO~~~ isnt it great~~ hahahax..(>_<) Its a brand new experience for me..as in..working with the children on the stage. It's a great birthday and we've kinda celebrated it on the 5th Aug..=)

Today is 6th Aug 2006, which is also my 18th birthday. To be honest, I am in a state of exhaustion right now but my mind is so packed up with "who am I gonna be?" that I cannot sleep. I have been tossing and turning around in my bed for the past 30 minutes.

A few days ago, I suddenly realised that I am turning into an adult soon and I somehow cannot accept the fact at that time..hahax..Aint I being silly again? Hmm..I wanna change myself throughly, both inside and outside. Right..I am not joking or fooling around this time. I am desperate to prove to everyone that I have grown up..somehow..into a real adult. "No More A Smart Little Girl With No Heart.."

I wanna be a different me and I gotta start doing that from now on. All along, I have been waiting for the environment to change me. However, that's not how things should work out...I should have the ablitiy to change the environment instead.

I have decided that I will participate in the voting process of the student committee when school reopens. I know its very likely I may not get a post in the student committee. However, I only know one thing. I am gonna regret if I didnt give it a try. I dont wanna be regretting my every decision for the rest of my life...

From the stagecoach course, I have learnt that, if you never tried, you will never know. Thats an important lesson for me...now and then.

If I want to be a successful person, I cannot do whatever I like whenever I want to. Thats not called freedom..thats not called simple life..thats called SLACKING! I assure that I will never improve myself in that way.. I dont wish that I spent half of my teenage years touching the computer..I dont wish that my world is limited around the computer..and when I get old, others ask what I had been doing while I was young, I told them " playing the computer.." Doesnt that sound sux to you? There are still so many things on this world, awaiting for me to achieve.

Meaning..I wont be online on weekdays..unless its compulsory. OH..sometimes u r addicted to computer..then u'd do stupid things with dumb excuses like..oh i am juz downloading stuff..oh..i am juz checking mails..oh..I am juz finding out some information..OH UR HEAD LAH! NO MEANS NO!

I can shine on the stage too..there's nothing to be afraid of. Even a 7 years old kid can do it, why cannot I? Dont be afraid of being jeered at or being ashamed if you didnt get what you want.. If they tell you " hahax..you didnt get it.." Reply proudly, " At least I tried." or if they console u with statements like " Awww...tats sad. I am sad for you.."..Reply with a geinue grateful smile.." Thats okay, I will try harder next time. "

Erica is so right about me..yet sometimes I refuse to admit. Now we all have to be humble to learn..The adults have lived more on the Earth than us and its an undeniable fact that we gotta learn a lot of things from them. I am not saying that whatever they said are correct..but you gotta take their words seriously, interpret them on your own and decide whether they are beneficial to you. Dont treat them like old folks who are nagging all day long and only talking gibberish.

And..We gotta be polite towards people, especially those elder ones. Dont let them think that we have no manners. Why is that so? Becoz that shows how your family, ur parents dont bring you up in the right way. In any sense, you are bringing shame onto your parents and thats the least thing I wanna do in the world.

Oh..By the way, girls have to behave like girls while the boys like boys. Dont try to be a tomboy...speaking vulgarities..acting like a boy..Nobody would think that you are cool..and you are juz being so un-cool about it..and some think you are ah-lian!

In this society, its being polite for girls to dress up like one..putting make-up and wearing dress make you look formal when you go to work or when you attend parties. Of course, I am not claiming that you should put up those thick-up and anyone wanna vomit whenever they see you..juz that..arghh..you should know?

And! Dont let " I have tried my best " to limit your own ablity. When you have fully believed that you have tried your best, thats it. Thats where your limit is. There's never something called "best" becoz its not for you to judge. The boss/teacher wont feel pathetic towards you juz becoz u think u've tried your best, juz becoz u've put in a lot of effort. They only wanna see the result and they dont care about the process...

That does sound unfair..but thats the reality. Well..you may argue that even idiots have tried their best, they still cannot score full mark for a simple mathematical test. I shall say..you are borned differently from them..and if you are comparing yourself with them, you are nothing but an idiot.. Juz like..Would you put an able person and a person in wheel chairs in the same competition?

Er..take note, I am not discriminating anything or anybody here..its juz an example..so...dnt shoot me... Sometimes you give complaints like..I am not smart..blah blah blah..uh huh.. IF YOU ARE NOT SMART, YOU SHOULD WORK DOUBLE HARD !!

Who is there to justify the right or wrong? Nobody..becoz there is so-called grey zone..there are all sorts of circumstances that you havent thought of yet they might fall on you one day...

Dont make any promises or assurances when you cannot achieve them too..coz when you cannot achieve them, the ones you've given ur promises/assurances are gonna be disappointed!

Furthermore, you joke at the right time. If you keep joking all day long, nobody knows when they should trust you and when they shouldnt. This is sorta attitude problem...

Once you have decided to do something, dont give up easily. I gotta have the determination to make it last. I hate practices..and I believe that everyone does. However, practices makes perfect..hmm..this reminds me that i gotta practise my piano...=.=""...

Well..we have to be responsible for our deeds too. Like me, I cannot even take care of a pot of lavender..being busy is juz not an execuse. Pets are stronger than flowers..but babies are more fragile as compared to flowers. If you are busy with your work and you forget to feed your kid for 3 days..will they still be alive !? Gosh..such a lousy comparision.

Why am I writing these..hmm..coz I used to be an idiot and now I have realised my mistakes. =) Thx to Erica. But hor..sometimes still v unhappy lah...=.=""

Hmm..Juz wanna mention sth..Wing is v nice..hahax..coz hor, I dont know him well, i only see him a few times but he would email me asking why i didnt go to church..see. The world is full of nice people...