yest go elderly home..feeling more sian than last time, duno y..but anyway we r not there to find joy. In fact, it was quite near to my house..hehe..so go home veri soon. On t way to there, it is raining, so i took umbrella with Daren but my shoulder stil got a bit wet lor. I go elderly home..wat elderly i tak care of all dunno chinese n fu jian hua. They are Hainanese n Malay..but nvm lor..juz take care of them. Now i realise it is veri tiring to walk with an elderly..hv to help her move tat thing n has to be careful. Later i tin is not t elderly fall, is i fall la..haiz. Then, another elderly suddenly wave to me n say wanna walk..then..of course i go tak tat thing lor. However!!!!! When i took it in front of elderly, a person scold me loudly sia. At tat time, i feel so shiok..tears..haiz..juz being kind oso lik tat. He say 'Dont do anything without permission!!!!'..but later on mrs khoo ask me not to tak it 2 heart as juz now an elderly fall n they are being defensive. Wel..with her words, i feel much better. Victor n weijie oso perform clarinet for elderly. Honestly, victor play til so wonderful! T song is so nice n emotional..gd sia!!! Cool!!!hahaha. abt t biscuits n mooncake..i didn eat any of them..sob sob. Coz i stil take care of elderly with esther when they eating..then..dun hv liao lor!!!!! WOlau leh..so hungry when i reach home.

2day is weirong bd lor..happy bd to him!!! Haiz..during geo lesson, i play with weiling oso hv trouble 1. Hafidz say i naughty gal n weirong say we molest each other. In t end, sylvia oso thought we r les coz there is a msg 'we prefer each other la'...then..lik tat lor. Hafiz use my hp to sms weirong, dunno wat he say sia. veri curious!!

Then 2day hv test test test..in t end..i didn study for anything. Physics test..other pp all get straight line then i get curve!!!!!! Other pp get 15 sth for focal length, i get 1!!!!!! Y didn i realise there is sth wrong!!! I hate myself so much now. Then..lik tat k pass??

Then A maths test, veri careless lor..answer all differen frm others, sure die 1. Then if other pp read tis blog, they wil say i veri fake, then later get highest..wat wat wat lor..watever la! u all say lor, i dun care liao. 2 sad.lik tat k pass??

Then yesterday E maths test..i dun even noe wat is a histogram!! I dunno is line one or bar one..anyway..durin test, mrs khoo look at my paper n laugh..'who ask u never do hw yesterday.' BUT HOR!!! i did leh..hm..by coping though..tis is so-called senseless copy cat. lik tat k pass???

Then ss test..same as asshole test la..haiz. I slept a bit during t test coz i dun even noe wat it is abt. Military deterrence??? shit la..then in t end..i dunno wat i writing. Both qns write 1 page respectively only..my words scrawling lik worms lor..some k not even recognise by myself. I wont be able to understan my master piece! Like tat k pass??

Then eng test..i thought teacher say only gv us 30 min!!! Of course i write veri fast
La!!! As time pass..i finish..other pp hv not..time pass more..sia la..wonder y never take back testpaper..then..mdm rogaya oso dunno go where liao..haiz. IN t end, we hv 1 hr to write..but i already finish! how to continu!..write 1 pg bah..hiaz. LIk tat k pass??

ALl these tests..if k pass, i veri happy. If next wk i receive test paper..all fail..then wad shd i do? cry?? not sure..coz i already did it 2day.

When i am going home, i ran into a Taiwanese junior or senior?(..dunno la..older than me). Then he ask y i look so depressed, i tel him abt my studies lor. haha..he seems dun care dun care lik tat. He tel me tat y shd we care so much?? then..i say parents, he say so wat? ya hor, so wat ah? i say it is not easy for his parent to send him to spore. He say so wat? i dun lik oso ah. hm..suddenly feel speechless.haha..envy tat he is so free. Ya hor, y k not we juz lead a simple life?..but lik tat..i wil be scolded no ambition again. Then hor. He is lik zho yi bu, shuan yi bu..haha..feel much better after chatting with him. He stil hv tat kind of taiwanese accent..which i almost lost mine. He lives with a gp of taiwaneses mah..envy! but y shd i??haha..tok kok la..

I wont break friendship coz of rumours. I did tat before coz i am shy. I even believe an idiom says 'rumours wil leave after 75 days'...2 stupid liao. i did tat before, so i won do it again. So wat other pp say we lik each other? as long as we noe we dun then k already mah..haha..but i oso lik say other pp..lik xy n wr..but juz for fun la.dun get offended. Now..dun care dun care except studies.

I asked my mom..if i scored badly, do i hv to commit suicide??..hm..juz ask for fun la..coz suddenly tin of tat when i depressed. Then she lik get shock lik tat..haha..in my blog i tok abt studies one, my biggest fan nao. So if feel stressed, then dun read my bloG!!!i am writing for t sake of writing it. Ya..tats it..

I 2day n yesterday hv headache..so pain..HAIZ...tml stil hv NYAA stuff..go clean up rubbish..haiz..whole day leh. Must tired to death liao.

2day saw qinghui..i say i sad, then she said, dun be sad la, it is not lik u. haha...tat means i am cheerful in front of other pp lor?? haha..wanna stay cheerful oso mah..but how k a human not sad?? nvm, i wil try my best. Even i cry, i oso mix it with my laughter..!!!

i tired liao, dun wanna play pc anymore. i tired liao, dun wan write blog anymore.
In fact, i wanna say..i tired liao, dun wan study anymore..but..haiz..impossible!!

3 mysteriou feelings:

(1)If one day I am not there, will u be able to see me??

(2)My future is in my hands, but it is out of my control.

(3)Dun force me..i hv enough!!!

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