A Girl Like Me..

♥29 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

Ah..exams..exams..tests..tests..asshole..asshole.. = =

Final yr exam has already cum so i must work harder..in order to repay my time for playing 2 much pc..although i am stil touching it now. I tin i am veri stressed up but i dunno if others r t same as me..guess they r too..coz.i really not in mood to observe anyone liao. I am Tired enough..almost everyday sleep over 12 o'clock. Then wake up so early..oso wont feel sleepy 1. Everyday before i go sleep, i will tin..'wat if i didn do well?', 'wat if i fail any of my subjects?'..a lot of wat if la..but k not change anything as life goes on.

Then hor, when pp get veri stressed, they wil blame other people..tats...TEACHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!
WEl, it is not rite to say tat they r wrong but teens lik us oso almost k not stand it any longer. Tis week we hv 7 tests leh!! Then mrs Tay so wat okay! i ask her if t test on wed is counted, then she say yes! HOwever!!!! it is not at all!! She cause me to study until wanna gv up, cause me wanna drop bio! it is becoz of her!! maybe it is my own fault not to study..so? i juz wanna push all the blames on other pp rite now la.

It is lik i am in the middle of a big circle, with 9 balls bouncing up n down on the circumference. 9 subjects rep 9 subjects n i hv to rush here n there at a fast speed to hit 9 balls to keep it up in the air, not to let it fall. Up means better grade n fall means t opposite. If i go hit tis, other 8 subjects start fall...n same to t others. It is so tiring tat i hv to keep 9 balls afloat in t air. How i wish to hv 9 hands to hit all of them..haiz..imagination run wild.

Luckily my chem n e maths test okay okay..Haiz..but must improve more..until lik mid yr lik tat. Then i wil be satified, but i tin..quite impossible..dunno la..everything squeeze up in my little brain liao.

Then hor, 2day i keep turning back to Chin Yong as i wanna borrow chem file!! I didn bring anything abt chem coz..Haiz..i forget. Last nite i go pack my bookshelf (full of bks!) until nice nice, then i forget to bring!! I stupid lor..Then Mrs Tay go ask me if i gonna turn the position of my chair, n face to face wif Chin yong. The whole class laugh n i feel so angry okay!! Ya la, wrong of me to study chem during bio lesson! SO?? Then sam oso kena sabo..coz Mrs Tay oso tok abt her!

Everytim i get teased becoz of my stupid act. Last time lik tat, tis time oso. Then daniel stil go n say..HAiz..i dunno la..maybe one day i wil juz break down bah..WHo to blame?? myself lor..stupid idiot.

Mrs Khoo say there is a student who has act over border on the friendship..then get hit, then fits. i am thinking..am i too much sometimes? maybe i shd consider abt my behaviour..

Then weiling say i seem not in gd mood for whole day. Wel, i dunno..maybe i look serious bah. Recently quite a few pp tel me abt tat..then i oso stop going down for recess..dunno y. i feel guilty when going down, doing nth but juz chatting..though i enjoy it, it seems not the rite time for me to do so.

i saw ying ping, ah zhen , zhi ying n pei ying 2day..wan lin not around. Then i feel so happy..hehe..dunno y!!wahhaah..

I am here..wishing everyone all the best for ur final exam..

♥ My World My Life

1:45 PM

♥24 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

quite long time nv write blog liao..but i oso dunno wat to write la! Juz veri troubled troubled!

hm..test ah..dun wna tok liao..sure die one. Ah! In fact 2day hv bio test..but a lot of people including me who gv up at 130am last nite never study, so we ask Fish to postpone for us. Durin t mother toungue exam, Fish told me tat Mrs Tay sms him 'if k not, then when? ' ..then Fish thought it means k be postponed. Then i wanna tel xy, wolau leh..let teacher c..i am stil wondering y xy dun reply me leh. NO WONDER!! then she scold me..warm me lor..sad. However, when we wanna go home, esther n me ran into Mrs Tay n she say hv test!!! i was lik shocked!! Haiz..i k go out n eat with tutor if dun hv bio test leh..sad thing. Then for rest of time, oso dun wanna study coz no use la. I tried to cal my bro then he only cal me when he was on t bus!!! haiz..

tml moon cake festival..not interested..k not go oso..so forget it! juz a normal day to me.

♥ My World My Life

12:40 PM

♥22 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

a lot things happen over the few days..haiz..dun really feeling lik to say leh.

1. Nyaa community service at coast picking idiot rubbish.
2. Kena teased again
3. study til siao

...TIRED!!! troubled n sad!!!

♥ My World My Life

4:59 PM

♥17 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

yest go elderly home..feeling more sian than last time, duno y..but anyway we r not there to find joy. In fact, it was quite near to my house..hehe..so go home veri soon. On t way to there, it is raining, so i took umbrella with Daren but my shoulder stil got a bit wet lor. I go elderly home..wat elderly i tak care of all dunno chinese n fu jian hua. They are Hainanese n Malay..but nvm lor..juz take care of them. Now i realise it is veri tiring to walk with an elderly..hv to help her move tat thing n has to be careful. Later i tin is not t elderly fall, is i fall la..haiz. Then, another elderly suddenly wave to me n say wanna walk..then..of course i go tak tat thing lor. However!!!!! When i took it in front of elderly, a person scold me loudly sia. At tat time, i feel so shiok..tears..haiz..juz being kind oso lik tat. He say 'Dont do anything without permission!!!!'..but later on mrs khoo ask me not to tak it 2 heart as juz now an elderly fall n they are being defensive. Wel..with her words, i feel much better. Victor n weijie oso perform clarinet for elderly. Honestly, victor play til so wonderful! T song is so nice n emotional..gd sia!!! Cool!!!hahaha. abt t biscuits n mooncake..i didn eat any of them..sob sob. Coz i stil take care of elderly with esther when they eating..then..dun hv liao lor!!!!! WOlau leh..so hungry when i reach home.

2day is weirong bd lor..happy bd to him!!! Haiz..during geo lesson, i play with weiling oso hv trouble 1. Hafidz say i naughty gal n weirong say we molest each other. In t end, sylvia oso thought we r les coz there is a msg 'we prefer each other la'...then..lik tat lor. Hafiz use my hp to sms weirong, dunno wat he say sia. veri curious!!

Then 2day hv test test test..in t end..i didn study for anything. Physics test..other pp all get straight line then i get curve!!!!!! Other pp get 15 sth for focal length, i get 1!!!!!! Y didn i realise there is sth wrong!!! I hate myself so much now. Then..lik tat k pass??

Then A maths test, veri careless lor..answer all differen frm others, sure die 1. Then if other pp read tis blog, they wil say i veri fake, then later get highest..wat wat wat lor..watever la! u all say lor, i dun care liao. 2 sad.lik tat k pass??

Then yesterday E maths test..i dun even noe wat is a histogram!! I dunno is line one or bar one..anyway..durin test, mrs khoo look at my paper n laugh..'who ask u never do hw yesterday.' BUT HOR!!! i did leh..hm..by coping though..tis is so-called senseless copy cat. lik tat k pass???

Then ss test..same as asshole test la..haiz. I slept a bit during t test coz i dun even noe wat it is abt. Military deterrence??? shit la..then in t end..i dunno wat i writing. Both qns write 1 page respectively only..my words scrawling lik worms lor..some k not even recognise by myself. I wont be able to understan my master piece! Like tat k pass??

Then eng test..i thought teacher say only gv us 30 min!!! Of course i write veri fast
La!!! As time pass..i finish..other pp hv not..time pass more..sia la..wonder y never take back testpaper..then..mdm rogaya oso dunno go where liao..haiz. IN t end, we hv 1 hr to write..but i already finish! how to continu!..write 1 pg bah..hiaz. LIk tat k pass??

ALl these tests..if k pass, i veri happy. If next wk i receive test paper..all fail..then wad shd i do? cry?? not sure..coz i already did it 2day.

When i am going home, i ran into a Taiwanese junior or senior?(..dunno la..older than me). Then he ask y i look so depressed, i tel him abt my studies lor. haha..he seems dun care dun care lik tat. He tel me tat y shd we care so much?? then..i say parents, he say so wat? ya hor, so wat ah? i say it is not easy for his parent to send him to spore. He say so wat? i dun lik oso ah. hm..suddenly feel speechless.haha..envy tat he is so free. Ya hor, y k not we juz lead a simple life?..but lik tat..i wil be scolded no ambition again. Then hor. He is lik zho yi bu, shuan yi bu..haha..feel much better after chatting with him. He stil hv tat kind of taiwanese accent..which i almost lost mine. He lives with a gp of taiwaneses mah..envy! but y shd i??haha..tok kok la..

I wont break friendship coz of rumours. I did tat before coz i am shy. I even believe an idiom says 'rumours wil leave after 75 days'...2 stupid liao. i did tat before, so i won do it again. So wat other pp say we lik each other? as long as we noe we dun then k already mah..haha..but i oso lik say other pp..lik xy n wr..but juz for fun la.dun get offended. Now..dun care dun care except studies.

I asked my mom..if i scored badly, do i hv to commit suicide??..hm..juz ask for fun la..coz suddenly tin of tat when i depressed. Then she lik get shock lik tat..haha..in my blog i tok abt studies one, my biggest fan nao. So if feel stressed, then dun read my bloG!!!i am writing for t sake of writing it. Ya..tats it..

I 2day n yesterday hv headache..so pain..HAIZ...tml stil hv NYAA stuff..go clean up rubbish..haiz..whole day leh. Must tired to death liao.

2day saw qinghui..i say i sad, then she said, dun be sad la, it is not lik u. haha...tat means i am cheerful in front of other pp lor?? haha..wanna stay cheerful oso mah..but how k a human not sad?? nvm, i wil try my best. Even i cry, i oso mix it with my laughter..!!!

i tired liao, dun wanna play pc anymore. i tired liao, dun wan write blog anymore.
In fact, i wanna say..i tired liao, dun wan study anymore..but..haiz..impossible!!

3 mysteriou feelings:

(1)If one day I am not there, will u be able to see me??

(2)My future is in my hands, but it is out of my control.

(3)Dun force me..i hv enough!!!

------------=====I lOvE cHoCoLaTe=====---------------

♥ My World My Life

2:35 PM

♥15 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

On sun nite, i make a card until 12 plus k..piggy..pig.panda..cat..mosquito..all t family animals la..lucky yiwen lik it. Haiz..dunno wat animal to draw stil go n ask samuel leh.

On mon, i dun wanna go home as everytim there is tuition awaits for me then i oso nv study wat tutor is gonna test me 2day..i wanna study during art club lor..but k not..concentrate la!!!!! wat t hell man..so sad abt it. LUCKY hehe..my tutor hv sth so hv to leave early first. Tat means!!! I dun hv tuition..then chat with ANh n jessica til 6 sth..sitting on patch of grass..Then after tat wanna go home..2 late liao..sky becum dark. SO!!! hv to tak taxi..but suay lor, never bring money. Then hv to call pp who live near schol to cum out n borrow. Ask Aesha..dunno wat she doing la..maybe busy..but quite unfriendly lik tat..then she say k not. So i ask Hafidz..he best lor! Rush to lend me money..thx him a lot.HEhe..gd frienz. Then go take photo lor..quite nice..xy scan it in pc liao..thx her oso. HAPPY HAPPY!!!

On tue, bio lesson sux okay! I dun remember a thing abt t revision ws..juz write rubbish. Then i saw samantha k write leh!!! Shock k! I thought..she becum veri hardwoking then k do it...BUt hor..in t end, i check ans with her. It is lik OMG!!! RBD cum frm brain n WBC cum frm heart sia..almost faint when i saw tat..haiz haiz. Somemore t differnce btw RBC n cheek cells..her ans is..one is red n one is not!!!Aiya..dunno how to say her liao. BUt nvm, my ans all wrong oso.
Then she oso gv back test..i get 80%..first time so high, happy liao. Sam..veri angry with Mrs TAy. Sam didn write according to fomat..then minus 2 marks in total..same as Anh..Then she tel Mrs Tay..she say dun care. Then ask whole clas to choose if they deserve t mark. 2 bad...whole clas say NO!..esp Joel..he stil dunno it is sam who mak t mistake. Then hor..i heard daniel n chin yong oso say no.hhehe...sam say they r dead liao..use her funny eyes to look at them..

Then chem lesson..lik mdm haliza..tel us jokes. hehe..she so nice one, tel joks to cheer us up. One of them is..wat is t fomula of H20..'H to O'..seems tat i am t first 1 to realise t joke. Haiz..y so weird 1 ah..other jokes every1 k understan, i k not. Tis kind of idiotic joke i k understan, then others k not liao. sad sad.

Next is A maths lesson..hm..wat k i say leh..veri sleepy..almost fall asleep liao. I forget to bring report bk again, then mrs Khoo say if i forget to bring tml..then i hv to walk to elderly home with Anh, coz she didn bring form for elderly home..so eMBA">mbarrassed. However, i am thinking..wat t hell does report bk has to do with elderly home???haiz..

During recess..Angela n Daren ask me to go down, but k not!!! i 2 tired liao..really fall asleep immediately. I bang my face onto t table when bel rings liao..so so so sleepy k!!! hehe..i am a thief t nite be4. Then wake up liao..HUNGRY!!!!!..but 2 bad, 2 little time left, no time to go n buy. If noe earlier, ask wr to buy for me liao..haiz.pook seng bd leh..nv say happy bd to him..2 bad..recess is different time.

After tat is chinese lesson lor..samantha make me til so damn damn eMBA">mbarrassed k! Feeling so assholy stupid of myself. COnversation is as following:

Sam: Oi..do u have handphone?
Hsiu ya: hv ah..y leh?
Sam: Victor wanna borrow..
Hsiu ya : oh..(turn my head to Victor.) I have handphone ah.
Victor : ...(silence)
Hsiu ya : u wanna borrow??(feeling so damn idiot to trust sam)
Victor : no..
Hsiu ya : okay then.(stil didn realise wat is going wrong n listen to Mr Goh again)

*** After a while***

sam : (she started laughing)..i bluff u one leh.
Hsiu ya : oh..(slow reaction)..then..WOLAU LEH U!!!
sam : (start laughing lik mad woman liao.. i so eMBA">mbarrassed, turn my head away frm her..then saw victor..more eMBA">mbarrassed..better look in front..HAiz..)
Sam : (she turned n tel chin yong n daniel abt it..)
Chin yong : oh...(not much reaction)

***After a long while***

Sam : u noe wat am i toking??(say to chin yong..)
Chin Yong : ...No...(at tat time..i almost laugh til hv stomach liao..he dun get it at all k..)
Sam: (explain 1 more time..)
Chin Yong n Daniel : (get it liao..start laughing..ashhole them!)

..K la!!! Then for t rest of t Cl lesson, 3 of them bully me by keep asking 'do u hv handphone??' ASSHOLE K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Never trust sam liao la.idiot 3 of them..gd lor..laugh at them..i'll remember for rest of my life!!!

After tat..eng lesson..go History rm..haiz. JOnas keep laughing at my name...angry k..then few min be4 clas, wanna go toilet. Ask Yirong help me tak my eng file..i thought hv to hand in mah. Then..dunno wat i tinking lor..at a loss..blur 1. I ask pp where is t gal toilet..sia la..daniel, wr, ks , yr, lp..all point diff directions..= =''..my god. According to my distinct, of course trust gals la..haha..finf my way there. Then hor, during eng lesson, mdm rogaya say wat i i thing.. i thought she say when use i, then must use I..for example..milk must becum mIlk liao..Then i dun get it mah..wonder y every1 understan..haiz..After tat, esther tel me is I..for I am tat one..chey..i dun even noe it is written as i in first place leh.

After going home, hv Jap food to eat!! Wahhaha..so happy. n chocolate flavour desert somemore..hehe..my tutor say hv to eat soon, or else it wil spoil. Then i tinking 'o only let watermelon in fridge rot..not desert la'..now all finish liao. YUMMY!!!

On wed..sad day lor. Sam never cum to schol coz she is sick..wat shd i say leh? serve her rite..lie to me..hahaha..jkjk

Then..teck hua sat beside me la..really a disaster k. Mrs Khoo ask us to do e maths tys..i never bring..forget liao..then borrow frm yirong. She veri nice..but i forget it is her bk..go n highlight it, SO sorry. But i bring e maths textbk la..though i nv do coz victor they borrow. Anway, not in mood oso. When i am doing tys, teck hua go search my bag..take out my pat somemore..but dun care la..guys never c pat before meh,then kept saying pervert thing..'ur fluid cum out ah?'..ask me to help him wear..WOW LENH leh...aiya..a lot more la..After tat, he tok to chin yong n daniel..haiz..k not concentrate on my work already. I wanna listen but oso wanna do hw..then..sad lor..hw anyhow do..their conversation oso not clear..i tin is abt food..haiz..make me hungry only la. After tat..he 2 much..go n say pp fuck..aiya..dun wanna say la. Then a bit angry with him..asshole..childish la him. Next time i bring a lot of pat to let him wear in front of whole class!!!! DAmn him..

During Cme lesson..no mood to do hw..walk around with Anh. We oso discuss abt tml elderly home trip..i am in charge of t biscuits..During reces..hm..shierly pervert..go anyhow touch touch.EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....................

Bio i oso never study..DUN CARE OKAY!!!..of course dunno how to do lor..but if Mrs Tay c..she sure nag nag nag..i juz..move my pen here n there lor..pretend to write..but nv la..forget everything liao. However hor!!!!! I really dun lik Mrs Tay lor..eveytim say she wil hv less student next yr..wat wat wat..lik i nv study lik tat. Shit her la. Then 2day i tok to shierly, stare at me lik so wat leh..Then..stare back..hahaha. Wat she teach i dun understan 1, then always so sacarastic.

El lesson is gd..juz..i lik mdm rogaya. Then after lesson, i ask her abt t meeting thing again..hm..aiya..hm..SECRET!!! haha..wr n jessica stil there..so i dunno how to say at tat time liao..juz keep saying dunno dunno. hehe..sry..wr go n guess..my guardian is my tutor!! OMg...so funny..how k he tin of tis idea mah!! cute thinking, cute person..WAHAHHAHA.

Geo lesson..DAMN HER LOR. stay back us for 10 min..wanna finish whole powerpoint! Fat hope la her..tired k. But ..almost cry at tat time. When she let us go, i rush out classrom n immediately complain to daren til almost cry. Lucky he smile smile..make me a little better la..but stil my face lik shit. We dun need to eat lunch izit! Veri Hungry leh. suffer frm not enough nutrition then her fault la!!!!

Physic lesson, my test mark is 24/40..depressed..last few in clas leh..When techer tok abt Mcq..hv 2 qns same. Then say got pp 1 qns correct, 1 qns wrong. Haiz..wanna dig a hole to hide my head liao..i do tat lor. Q6 wrong, Q12 correct. Coz veri rush mah..tat time when test..i thought mcq tat paper is ws..coz not stapled 2gether. Only in t end i realise okay!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hate my own stupidness.

Then dunno when..i tok to mervyn,victor say i veri noisy..sad. Then weiron cum,say all my fault, cheat money frm him, no reason one leh!.(next time gonna do tat to him)..sad. Teck hua's toking..sad. Mrs Fong's ba da..sad. Mrs Tay's stare..sad(she dun lik me lor.) Physic test result..sad. 2day samuel n weiling conversation, i blur..sad. Then no reason..headache for whole day.. :(

We hv 4 test on fri, 1 test on sat..stressed. Hw..more stressed.

With so many sad issues n stress issues, i almost cry after fong lesson liao..haiz..
Wo de yian lei zhai yian kuan li da zhuan...hao bu rong yi cai ren zhu de shou..

Finish liao..sad day anyway..nitez..

.

Love pictures!!!

♥ My World My Life

4:21 PM

♥13 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

.

2day hv a long chat with Anh n Jessica, i went home at 730..in details are...i lazy to write..haha..nitez. Zzzz..veri sleepy..

♥ My World My Life

3:55 PM

♥12 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

2day oso nth nth.
I found out tat i lik to call others pig head coz they r cute. Everybody is cute in his/her own way..tats wat i feel bah..hehe. Then hor, i hav a soft soft pighead which i bought a few weeks ago. So damn shiok to punch it okay..Feel great..wahahah..dun worry..i am not a pervert.

♥ My World My Life

12:06 PM

♥11 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

2day in morning i go dentist..PAIN SIA!!!!!!!!!! WOlau leh! u noe hor, t dentist help me clean teeth til lik a million billion bees are stinging me k! Then i was lik keep hold my fists..coz so damn pain..later i go n punch him.Wahaa. Then hor, we oso ask abt t price n time to mak teeth straight..God!! It requires 2 yrs time n a largr amt of money leh!!!..though i done it be4, but hv not finish then i cum here..sad sia..now teeth stil cruked..HAIZ..

When i wan stil in Taiwan, i was not allowed to go out alone..wel..even with my frienz oso k not la! It was so depressing..aiya..others k not understan one la. Even schol outing, my mom wil say NO!!! Even primary six outing, gonna graduate, my mom say NOOOO!!!..Then say wil gv me watever i wan. I choose gameboy lor..coz she oso dun allow me to play games n pc..she scare i spoil my eyes. THEN!!!!!!!!She really agree leh, even buy me 2. Dunno shd be sad or happy..ahha..my eyes really spoil during tat vocation coz whole day i looking into t screen..no choice..gameboy is 2 precious to me at tat time.(Now ask me go n touch oso dun wan..(hv more than 4 gameboy already)

When i grown up, cum to spore..found out tat there is another person lik me..oso k not go out 1..i heard tat he sneak out.= = ..then if tis is t first time he sneak out, then i admire him a lot. Coz when i primary 2, i rebellious n...GO OUT !!!
However..juz step out of t door..mama cum back! SO DAMN SUAY K!!!!!!!!! Then she lock me in a room..wat k i do? cry cry lor..I tin if i hv arguement with my mom..it is only coz she dun let me go out bah..it is really hard to describe..forget it la..sad sia. Loneliness surround me n engulf me into darkness..

Juz now i go watch channel 8, singer prize giving!! Hmmmm..so nice. >.<
I really find tat music powerful n i lik it a lot a lot lor. 2 bad, i k not dance n k not sing. My voice damn awful 1.wo hen you zi zhi zi min de..Haix....Now i lik Ocean, Atomic Kitten, S.H.E, Yan zhi n F.I.R a lot..Juz now on tv, wolau lehz!!
5566 n Energy SO cool!!!!!! Buay tahan, tis is man power, mi si wo le..wahahhaha.

K la..nth to write..my life is shit la..!!!wahahha..

♥ My World My Life

12:04 PM

♥10 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

wolau leh..my september holiday is so damn boring sia! except study is still study one..so damn sad..then everyday go online..nth to do..so juz tok tok tok. Then yesterday so EARLY i am lik tat doing lee ping blog with weirong liao..he hor..haiz..dun wanna say liao.WAHAHA.

Hm..wat else leh..wel..during t day..i wont be online 1. As long as it is be4 6, i wont be online one. It is my tutor who is using the pc..to find sth..abt us..hm..secret!hahaha. So if tok to me..dun expect me to reply. How t hell am i going to reply with my tutor's SHARP eyes staring at me lik mad ah er?wahahha

--------------------------Be A Happy Teenager---------------------------------------

Hv u ever hope:

>k be older now?
>k hv more money?
>k change ur appearance?
>ur parent are somebody else?

Hv u ever felt tat 'no one understan me? '
Hv u ever tin tat ' Wat is love? '
Hv u ever tin to drown ur sis or bro?
Hv u ever asked ' y am i studying those things in schol tat i wil never use in my whole life? '
Hv u ever doubt tat ' Am i normal? '

If half of ur nswer to above qns are 'YES'..u seems normal!
There is sth which may make u feel better, 96% of teenagers are not satified with their appearance n body.

U may believe tat :

>t cleverest pp are most the successful ones.
>Those who hv an easy life(plus those no need to work), are t most happy ones.
>Cutest gal k easily attract guys
>Handsome guys gain most gals trust
>It is not gd to make mistakes

But wat i write above maynot be correct!

If sb ask me 'if i dun wan to be happy, if i wanna put a bitter face on, so wat?'
Then i wil say 'Then, juz put ur bitter face on----if tat makes u happier!'

When u bite ur toungue, u wil not feel tat 'pain' is a gd thing. But if u wont feel t pain, then wat wil it be? Wil u keep biting ur toungue, burning ur butt when u r taking a shower? It is actualy an alarm system reminding us 'U BETTER CHANGE WAT U R DOING NOW!'

Thinking of tat, pain in our heart brings t same msg. If we usu feel unfair, jealous or furious,t pain in our heart is telling us 'U BETA CHANG UR TINKING'
For example:
Dun expect tat ur frienz hv t same thought as u.
Dun reky on ur frienz to find ur own happiness
Forgv urself. Forgiv ur own mistake n walk on.
When u r using diff angles to c a matter, pain wil disappear automatically.

Most of t time, unless we run into trouble or sth..we wont do anything abt it.For example, ur maths result is getting worse. ur teacher told u tat if u fail once more, u wil be in great trouble.

At tat moment, u needa to do a time plan for maths. u find ur frienz to tutor u, u put in a lot of effort. SOon u find out tat it is not a diff thing to pass! Y?
COz U RUN INTO TROUBLE!

Life is lik tis, we pass our day easily til t prob get more serious. In t end, we hv to solve it. After tat, we wil hv a beta life. we learn mmore in hardship rather than in success. TROUBLE make us to concentrate more, n take action!

Maybe u wil look into mirror n say 'i am not as pretty as my sis. i am not as clever as my frienz. i am not gd in anything! HOw u ask me to feel myself gd?'

t fact is..no one is gd in anything n every1 has t same thinking as u!but truth is,talent n beauty r useful, looking around, u find pp with talent n beauty everywhere,but we may not admire them. Furthermore, among these people, some of them r irritating!...think abt t rest bah!I k not possibly tel u everything. SO use ur brain la!

Y do u ever tin tat y every1 lov babies? Part of reason is tat they dun even care if u lik them. Babies eat, shout, yell n make smelly smell. They juz dun care.
Babies dont ingratiate others. When u r a baby, u dun need to act cool, clever, sexy or even stylish.
Is it hard to understan? Babies dun care abt how we look at them, but we lik them instead.
from tis, we learn sth--BE URSELF! Tis doesn mean u hv to be rude or selfish. Tis is juz to prov tat in real life..there is sth called 'tin 2 much!'

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coninue t rest next time bah..wahhaa..wat am i writing leh? those maybe useful thinkings for myself bah. Dunno la..i tin hor, many pp dun lik tok to me coz i am 2 blur liao, hv miscommunication with others. I dunno wat they toking n vice versa lor.
WATEVER MAN WATEVER MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ My World My Life

2:00 PM

♥07 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

Nvm la..i gv up liao. I will stil write my blog..coz..haha..dunno leh. During daytime so stressed then must relax..though i noe i relax a lot liao. :(

Recently so many people hv blog liao..wow..then everyday must go n read coz sometimes veri interesting, but hor, sometimes i oso dunno wat rubbish they writing la.

In my room so many items are spoiled, my light, my wardrobe..n etc la. Then never repair one, idiot!

Then yesterday hor, veri sad la! Weirong keep say i veri fan then he say he veri busy! K la, i dun disturb him k liao bah! I say sorry then he still continue complaining! HOw i noe if he is busy mah! My fault ah! Dun care la..dun tok then dun tok..then make me til so bad mood..Haiz. >.< ...weirong..NO OFFENDS

On yiwen bd..i abt sleep at 3 sth coz we hv a damn gd conversation with yiwen n samuel sia..hm..(details are convidential!) Now i feel that..wel..dunno how to say oso..Haiz..

Study veri stressed la, so many things to memoriz. MY brain so damn small n full of spider webs stil wan me to learn! OMg! Feeling lik to commit suicide already..sob..sob. However, tis final yr result is veri impt to my future lor..becoz..well..oso k not say! hahaha.

The geo lesson on mon i oso never listen, dunno wat t hell she is toking abt. I only kept eating biscuits under my table..then play with weiling n Anh. They 2 hOr, go n draw my left hand n rite hand, veri difficult to wash off leh. Winnie t pooh n flower somemore! Wolau leh..but..haiz..nvm..let them play lor.

2day my tutor n bro go marine parade n i didn! Coz i hv not finish my hw! Then..feel veri wat lor..sob..sob..stay at home n memoriz physics..but stil k not do it la. Lucky stil hv pizza to eat..hehe..but eat til 2 much..increase 1 more kg! Damn it!
Then now i saw t remaining pizza wanna puke already..Aiyo..er..er...er..

I wanna change layout..but..haiz..no1 help me..then oso veri difficult to make..nvm lor..i wil make more helpful n trustworthy frienz in future! I veri unpopular one..tinking of tis, then i am sad again. Haiz..

thx yiwen for her testi in friendster, i am gonna write one for her..she veri nice one!!! wahhaha

read other pp blog then i noe tat they hv done a lot of hw liao! Wolau leh, i hv not even done 20% of it leh! Eng..e maths..a maths..chinese..physics..so many...but dun care lor, i decide to do it on last day, or else i hv to study n do hw at same time, veri messy. DUN LIK!! if k not finish..hahaha..then nvm la! WHo cares! I must go n plan my time wel..but i noe i sure wont follow one..hahah..if i do timeplan, oso wil hv 'computer time' one..but dunno how long it wil be lor. Coz i switched on pc..go n do other things one..wahaha.

lol..3e now hv a website in msn liao! So happy..go n join bah..oso dunno is xiao yun or weirong make one.

Tats all..go n eat dinner now!

♥ My World My Life

11:51 AM

♥02 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

today we go for t army open house lor..honestly..veri sian coz hor, i not interested

in wat army army thing..as if my business...then i oso dun care. Wel, maybe coz i am

a gal bah. HOwever, i am stil veri happy to go out with t class lor..hehe..love 3e..

From schol to army open house, we on t bus.i sat with Esther. then i keep turning my

head to tok to Daren n Hafidz..(they sit behind me)..Then so damn dizzy k, feeling

lik to vomit..aiyowaiya..We all tok rubbish one..hehe..then i oso c t videos in #

hafidz's hp..veri funny. I oso play..hm..ALMOST KISS with Anh..tat means hor, a long

stripe of candy..we 2 bite at one side..then..hahaha..imagine urself bah. In t end,

both of us feel so damn disgusted la. On t bus, oso hv quite few pp studying

bio..coz tml hv bio test mah. Wolau leh, i not tat hardworking to study on a trip

lor!!! I AM NOT CRAZY!!!

During army open house, i buy 3 food..hehe..keep eating, lik a pig liao. Then go

home found out my weight increase by 1 kg. And then, i oso go into t army car..UP n

DOWN..SHOCK!!!! so damn it..so hot oso.

After tat, we go home..er..feel more dizzy n tired again. I listened to radio UFM

1003 lor..then PLAY AGAIN..hehe..hafidz bite my watch..SIAO! Then he even go n hide

it..then laugh laugh.

when reach schol at 5 37...go home go home..then sleep in

tuition..wahahha..sob..being scolded to death as well.

This morning..mrs Khoo gv us t date for final yr exam..t first one starts on 24

sep..SHOCK!!(2day too many shock liao..)SO FAST!!! I feel veri damn stressed

lor..then i noe i wont be able to play pc everyday liao. I said i wil work hard

one..but...sob..term 3 test juz finish n i stil daydreaming leh!!! OMG!!!AHHHHH!!!!

gonna be mad liao..hm..guess i only blog after final yr exam liao..STOP STOP STOP!!!

I like to study with my room is tidy..so tat i feel calm. I lik to study with my air

con on..(though it is on at all times), so tat i feel cool. I lik to study with my

chocolate, so tat i feel full!!! haha..n sleepy. I lik to study with my music on, so

tat i dun get bored easily n wont fall asleep, relaxing oso. Controversial..study

stress n music relaxing..hehe. Tats all bah!

ANyone c me online in msn k scold me hor..k ask me to go n die..k do watever u k to make me offline..thx u thx u!

SHOCK>>> almost pc problem..whole blog gone..hush..

CYA N NITEY NITE>>>>SWEET DREAMS!!

♥ My World My Life

5:07 PM

♥01 September 2004

A girl like me..♥

my tutor say my ability of oberserving is veri poor. today my guardian's room door is opened, t wardobe is opened n t light is on. My tutor n bro notice it but i dun..i juz not observant. MOst funny is my bro, he tin tat maybe some stranger cum into my house n hide somewhere..he walk into t room..look around..no1 there..THEN he walked out again..hahaha.

Veri sad as i not observant,maybe tis is y pp say i veri blur n simple minded, get bullied easily. Now then i realise how simlple my life is due to my simple mind..haiz..i always not tinking.. Abt 1 week..tin 1 hr important thing..Haiz. Then i oso k not c through t relationship btw human beings. I dunno how to observe unless it is veri obvious lor..but nvm, i will train myself. I wont ask wat i tin immediately liao..i wil THINK..but hor..everything tin tin tin oso veri tiring..tats y adults say being a human is tiring bah!

Tats y for 2day..guess one day i wil die of boredom bah!

♥ My World My Life

11:29 AM